It is very easy to want to wait for the right moment. To wait for the right time. To wait till some hurdle or big thing going on is over and done. To wait till next week. To wait till tomorrow. To wait till you have some kind of perfect plan.
That is 100% bullshit.
When I decided to do this I dove in. After that call with my brother I scheduled a physical and an ordered a fitbit for in store pick up. One hour later I was pushing for my first 10k steps.
You can’t hesitate.
When I got back from holiday travels (I flew out the day after the fitbit) I was going to just get walking in every day but my brother got on the phone and said very clearly “you will go sign up for the gym right now” I didn’t want too. I was afraid of diving too deep. That seemed like too much commitment but that tiny voice from the fateful day spoke soft but clear from the back of my mind.
“This is not like before. You can do this. You will do this.”
I went to the nearby Planet Fitness and signed up. I didn’t think about pricing or deals – I just wanted to know that when I walked out the door I had a pass. This was New Years Eve.
On January 1st, 2019 I walked into the gym for the first time since…well lets just say the first time ever. I’ll go more into my exercise evolution later but the point is I just started going.
The next thing was food. I knew immediately that the first thing that had to go was all the ‘junk’ food – anything that was basically just for taste and had little to no nutritional value. There was a huge emotional component to letting those foods go but not one that was health related that would of caused me concern. Again I’ll dive into that that whole thing later. My brother sent me some picture of the meal prep he was doing. I decided to emulate it and bought the first meal prep containers I saw (at a grocery store). I am a terrible cook – well okay maybe I’m a little better now – and did not really know how to do much more then cook ground turkey and make some quinoa in the instant pot. So hell yeah that is what we were cooking. I figured out portions for six containers and bought some frozen veggies (again advice from my brother) and just mashed it in there.
I still remember heating my first prep meal up and thinking “this is the most delicious thing I’ve ever eaten” The taste came from knowing I was doing the right thing and sticking to my pledge. A lot of questions were thrown at me about if it was okay to eat the same thing or how would you deal with eating the same thing every day. These were all valid but the point is that I didn’t give a f**k. I just knew I had to keep going and if those things became issues, I’d deal with them as they came (which I did and again I’ll dive into more later).
If you are looking to change your life like me then you need to be a little reckless. You need do to what a hero does naturally: act.
In December of 2018 I started a journey to overhaul my lifestyle and replace it with a new one focused on health. I was about 260lbs and been pretty obese my entire adult life. I was not active even when I was a young adult and lived a pretty sedentary lifestyle. I developed a terrible food addiction that carried through my whole life. The quick version is that I was an emotional eater who also was a private binger. So to be clear – there was no prime of my life version of me from the past.
So back to the December. At that time I went to see Into the Spiderverse and being someone who has a great fondness for superhero stories I loved it but something was different about this one. As a coworker of mine put it later: Spiderverse genuinely asked you to become a better person. To, as they say in the movie, wear the mask. This was on my mind when I then had a phone call with my older brother. We were catching up before the holidays and he started to tell me about getting some bad news about his overall health from his doctor and that he was starting a new regimen to fix it. He asked if I wanted to do this with him. Now my brother has tried for years to get me to lose weight. Nothing has ever stuck but during the conversation this time he said a few things about how I have a great ability and drive when I focus on something and that if I just tried I could do it. This resonated with Spiderverse’s themes of “a spark in you”. The real clincher was when we came to the subject of kids. My wife and I plan on having children. We actually planned to have them sooner but life gets in the way. That is fine – in fact that is why it is called ‘life’ in the first place. You can’t control everything. What that did mean though was that I was on borrowed time and that if I truly cared about my future children then I needed to show that I truly cared for myself so that I could be there as long as possible for them. Now the motivation became clear. If I wasn’t going to do this for myself then I sure as hell needed to do it for them.
Fighting for the future. That was the battle cry at the start. That was the mantra. Fight for the future.
I decided at that moment to start. Now here we are over one year later and I’m down 75 lbs and I’m in the best shape of my life. So much has happened to me and I want to share it with anyone who wants to hear about how one fanboy found the hero in themselves.
The plan for this blog is to write about various topics as they come to mind vs doing a pure chronological take. I’ll try to dive into the details of my diet and exercise plan if you want to try them out or take inspiration. If you would like to hear about specific things please leave a comment below.